the last mumbai rains sure has some very (sur)real and special memories with it.. and maybe it was saving itself for the last "encounter", that only in my last few days of bbay sojourn, am i experiencing bbay, in the entire new form.. a way in which i had only hoped that how nice it would be if i'd been able to live that.. a picture which was only and would always feature in my bbay "dreams".. n now, when i'm living it, it appears to be absolute surreal.. so much so, that im finding it really overwhelming n overpowering a feeling, most of the times..
it seems as if im living it to the extent that all that i'd missed out in the last 2 years, i'm living it all up (and how!) in style since the last 6 weeks! friends (with the "perfect" definition of it), place, fun, smiles, jokes, party, fun-times together n what not! including even the "girl-dates" to the "dates", secrets n confessions, fights n arguments, debates n entertainments, and all so many of them thats its almost impossible to note it all down n explain in words..
i've lived many firsts in my last few days of bbay sojourn..first experience of being friends with a guy who is way elder than me..married, in fact.. "friends" to the extent that we can even indulge in healthy flirting.. knowing people from varied backgrounds..so varied that even inspite of almost everyone being from Maharashtra and speaking Marathi, it gives a complete cosmopolitan feel to the entire group..my first experience of theatre and plays.. my first experience of a "night out" too! my first experience of the other part of bbay..a part, i never knew.. my first tryst with real "rock" n "club".. my first romance with the rains n beer..
and maybe, it'll only be these last 6-odd weeks of my bbay sojourn, that defines me now..im neither afraid, nor proud not even regretful..im happy.. in the truest form imaginable.. happy that im not living with any false pretences..happy for the basic fact that im not required to hide anything from anyone.. happy for the fact that i can be ME.. and happiest for the fact that im existing as ME.
yes! what i missed the most in the place where i was, the last 2 years, i got it all here.. something which was duly overdued. F-R-I-E-N-D-S. and the silver lining to it---> it comes with NO pre-conditions..
P.s. :: and of course, nothing taking away from those sweet-nothings moments, the hi5s, the walking-hand-in-hand, the dropping-me-off-to-home, getting wet in the rains, the "kaltes Bier", the sea splashing, impromptu-plans-with-a-margin-of-5-mins, and the best of all----------> the companionship♥! memories, maybe, are made of these....♥
it seems as if im living it to the extent that all that i'd missed out in the last 2 years, i'm living it all up (and how!) in style since the last 6 weeks! friends (with the "perfect" definition of it), place, fun, smiles, jokes, party, fun-times together n what not! including even the "girl-dates" to the "dates", secrets n confessions, fights n arguments, debates n entertainments, and all so many of them thats its almost impossible to note it all down n explain in words..
i've lived many firsts in my last few days of bbay sojourn..first experience of being friends with a guy who is way elder than me..married, in fact.. "friends" to the extent that we can even indulge in healthy flirting.. knowing people from varied backgrounds..so varied that even inspite of almost everyone being from Maharashtra and speaking Marathi, it gives a complete cosmopolitan feel to the entire group..my first experience of theatre and plays.. my first experience of a "night out" too! my first experience of the other part of bbay..a part, i never knew.. my first tryst with real "rock" n "club".. my first romance with the rains n beer..
and maybe, it'll only be these last 6-odd weeks of my bbay sojourn, that defines me now..im neither afraid, nor proud not even regretful..im happy.. in the truest form imaginable.. happy that im not living with any false pretences..happy for the basic fact that im not required to hide anything from anyone.. happy for the fact that i can be ME.. and happiest for the fact that im existing as ME.
yes! what i missed the most in the place where i was, the last 2 years, i got it all here.. something which was duly overdued. F-R-I-E-N-D-S. and the silver lining to it---> it comes with NO pre-conditions..
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