memories

this song has memories for me.
first memory goes back to my school days. the last few days in an obscure little 'city'. it was farewell scene. the last dinner with some of my favourite people. it had food. it had liquids. even for us kids. it had us, those awkward teenagers then. and it had them, those awkward parents of equally awkward teenagers. there was twinkling lights. cold monsoon air. the soft strumming of the guitar. and the voice of her. cascading over the still night air.

i still vividly recollect the exact set up of the time. of the place. the faces.
it's my happy place.

the next memory came to me at a place away from "home". alien faces. alien surroundings. alien feel. alien sounds. alien life. when i was not an awkward teen anymore. but moved on being a more awkward young thing in twenties.
but for this. this was familiarity. this was safe. this was "home". this was smiles. it held the promise of new beginnings.
it was still my happy place. this time, a little bigger than the last time.

and just when i thought, that i'd 'grown up'.. just when i felt that i'd better lock these up and put it under, it came back for redemption.

this time, again with my favourite people. some strangers. some not so strangers. but all with the same share of love.
but the setting was a bit different from the previous settings.
this time it was me.
this time, it was started by my favourite guitarist.
this time, it was encouraged by self-proclaimed serious critic.
this time, it was accompanied by one of the most loved / loving stranger.
and this time, it truly felt like coming home.


p.s. i want to go back to that place. take me back to that place.

march crazy

i learned an old word today.
no. my bad.
i learned an old phrase today.

the thing is, that 'phrase' is just a 'word' so, i was not entirely wrong when i said that "i learned an old word today."

phrase.. word.. in this case, its one or the same. so choose whatever you want to.

so, getting back to it.
i learned an old word today.

no.. you read it write.
and its no typo either.
that's how it stands.

"how?" you might wonder.
simple.

the word was not a stranger. the meaning was not a stranger either.
so what did i learn?

i learnt a particular 'direction'.

*knowledge is wealth indeed*
**muahahahahahahahah**
***evil laugh***

Arriverderci!

i don't really do well with changes.
but the all this damn world does is change.
like it or not, this one also happens to be a part of it.
so, a middle ground is the most sought after place.
and as all sought after places happen to be, this one too is tad bit on the pricier side.

this one was not really "sudden", to be fair on the world. this one was coming for quite sometime. i also happened to know about it for the same amount of 'quite sometime'. and i didn't really think much about it.. figured, "will deal with it when it really happens".

looks like i have to do with a lot of "dealing with it" now!

and amidst all this, inspite of all the hate-stories construed around you, with you being the centre-fold of supreme hatred (and i still blame you for spoiling my party plans on what would have otherwise been a legendary Monday, the 14th!), i wish you good! you were the 'Hari Sadu' of my stories, of my plans, of my abusive tirades, of those scheming plots with my Man. you were the one, i always made sure to stay out of sight, work from behind the scenes. took all the  caution to never come face-to-face with you. and yet, knowing that you ask about me, knowing that you are even aware of my existence, made me feel really happy.. almost on the borderline of gloat. and i thank you for that.

i'm going to carry this tiny bit of recognition to my grave!

and if one was not enough, there is Rat! you were always the smiling one. always the nice one towards me. and i'm sure i'm the only one to have us in a candid frame. and i'm keeping that preserved/framed for eternity!

looking at all this, i think i'm really really fortunate. or maybe somewhere, how-so-ever tiny it might have been, i must have done something really really good to have deserved such a huge thing!

so, wherever you people go, wherever the wind takes you, i hope it all turns out exactly the way you wanted it to be.

you'll always be remembered!
in stories. in tirades.

you'll always be the Hari Sadu. and Rat!

farewell!