happenings

things happen..
sometimes all at once..
sometimes nothing at once..
sometimes, it all happens in a set order.
sometimes, happenings are chaotic..

i have been told myself, all through my years of existence. "it happens". "it will happen". "it had to happen". "shit happens".
i have said myself the same things all through my years of living.

and then when you really hope for something to happen, you don't really get that happening. and again the same loop.

so, for me, it goes like this.

something happens.
i try to get a hang of things.
dip my toe in the water and the stuff.
then comes a big wave.
frantic case of flying arms and hope for a rubber dinghy.
float for a bit.
get used to the excitement.
and then it's a flatland.


and i get "this happens" from someone, somewhere.


p.s. patience, i must have. maybe turn to "Fishermen".
p.p.s patience.