"ChEaTeD"
it is not always used to define a phenomenon which involves the action acted upon by someone else onto you. it may not even be necessarily the case which defines the vice-versa action.
wierd, you say? not really.. complex?? well, maybe.. its more like you have to be a bit 'khiskhofied' (a term made fav by oft and repeated use by a said-person) to really understand what i mean by it..
and yes, it again goes without saying that 'khiskhofiedness' is a mandatory trait for anyone who posseses even the remotest hint of a wish to understand this post. period.
leaving all aside..
i felt cheated today.. not because someone played games with me.. but because i realised that i was cheating myself.. and i should either terminate it properly or leave it hanging abruptly.. and the worst part is---even at this moment, i cant make up my mind as to what is worse..
it was a fling.. or ,maybe even a careless (ad)venture.. never realised how it began.. never realised how it took form.. and never (again) realised how it grew and morphosed into something i will never recognise nor can i even accept without hesitating even for once.. but it existed.. rather, blossomed, even.. but at the end wilted away.. and the worst part, it is still there.. hanging on..
it is not always used to define a phenomenon which involves the action acted upon by someone else onto you. it may not even be necessarily the case which defines the vice-versa action.
wierd, you say? not really.. complex?? well, maybe.. its more like you have to be a bit 'khiskhofied' (a term made fav by oft and repeated use by a said-person) to really understand what i mean by it..
and yes, it again goes without saying that 'khiskhofiedness' is a mandatory trait for anyone who posseses even the remotest hint of a wish to understand this post. period.
leaving all aside..
i felt cheated today.. not because someone played games with me.. but because i realised that i was cheating myself.. and i should either terminate it properly or leave it hanging abruptly.. and the worst part is---even at this moment, i cant make up my mind as to what is worse..
it was a fling.. or ,maybe even a careless (ad)venture.. never realised how it began.. never realised how it took form.. and never (again) realised how it grew and morphosed into something i will never recognise nor can i even accept without hesitating even for once.. but it existed.. rather, blossomed, even.. but at the end wilted away.. and the worst part, it is still there.. hanging on..
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