"when you are officially seeing someone, and it is serious and more than just 'friends', it is mutually understood and accepted for a fact that you'll not go out on a date with any other guy/girl, other than the one you are in a relation with. and in that case, it can also be put together in a very crude term as 'courtship'. and from then onwards, the levels dun matter."
it makes sense. all definite sense. but i never know, even till this date, about the "status" of it that has been continuing for the past year and a half, that had defied all the set norms. and today, i even wonder, will it even last the one and half year mark? or have i tested it way too far with all the unpleasantness, that now it has finally withered away?
"serious relationship"--i dunno abt it.. but it was definitely not within the realms of "courtship", of that im pretty much sure.. but this is also true that never once, did the very thought of "going out on a date with someone else" occur to me. and i think i can safely say the same for the person concerned too.. inspite of not being at the same place, we still were with each other..in each others daily lives' mundane activities..never knew of any other way..of living.. coz, that had become a part of life.. a normal and default activity of life.. and for such an abrupt disruption to the "normal" life, well, that sure is bound to generate some unpleasant awkwardness..
but considering that it was neither of what is described and stated above.. just a mere exchange of pleasantries that somehow managed to persist for so long.. that somehow managed to defy all the logic and reasonings.. just plain normal catching up between friends.. so, if that is the case, then it leaves me with the freedon of "dating" or rather going out on coffe dates, lunch, movies or just like that dates with someone else too.. and if that is so, then it turns out that i've actually indulged myself quite a lot on this..
and still considering the alternative opinion to hold true, it then leaves me with full freedom to feel the way that im feeling currently.. the sharp jabs of jealousy, the seeking out of the concerned's activitites, building happy castles and hoping for utter unrealistic things, but yet waiting in anticipation and drooling over the non-existant possibility of "if it happens", and all of a sudde, behaving like an absolute teenager.. going weak in the knees everytime i see the concerned, reaching out to the concerned, almost involuntarily accepting and agreeing to all the arguments in the concerned's favour, the high fives, and the conscious brush against the knees, everytime, and all the time.. yes, its surreal.. but it still is nice in some way or the other..
and the one thing that comes to the fore, screeming for recognition, is one undenied phenomenon::
she is always noticed in a new place, by someone, who is the centre of all others' notifications.
and it holds true. yet again.
it makes sense. all definite sense. but i never know, even till this date, about the "status" of it that has been continuing for the past year and a half, that had defied all the set norms. and today, i even wonder, will it even last the one and half year mark? or have i tested it way too far with all the unpleasantness, that now it has finally withered away?
"serious relationship"--i dunno abt it.. but it was definitely not within the realms of "courtship", of that im pretty much sure.. but this is also true that never once, did the very thought of "going out on a date with someone else" occur to me. and i think i can safely say the same for the person concerned too.. inspite of not being at the same place, we still were with each other..in each others daily lives' mundane activities..never knew of any other way..of living.. coz, that had become a part of life.. a normal and default activity of life.. and for such an abrupt disruption to the "normal" life, well, that sure is bound to generate some unpleasant awkwardness..
but considering that it was neither of what is described and stated above.. just a mere exchange of pleasantries that somehow managed to persist for so long.. that somehow managed to defy all the logic and reasonings.. just plain normal catching up between friends.. so, if that is the case, then it leaves me with the freedon of "dating" or rather going out on coffe dates, lunch, movies or just like that dates with someone else too.. and if that is so, then it turns out that i've actually indulged myself quite a lot on this..
and still considering the alternative opinion to hold true, it then leaves me with full freedom to feel the way that im feeling currently.. the sharp jabs of jealousy, the seeking out of the concerned's activitites, building happy castles and hoping for utter unrealistic things, but yet waiting in anticipation and drooling over the non-existant possibility of "if it happens", and all of a sudde, behaving like an absolute teenager.. going weak in the knees everytime i see the concerned, reaching out to the concerned, almost involuntarily accepting and agreeing to all the arguments in the concerned's favour, the high fives, and the conscious brush against the knees, everytime, and all the time.. yes, its surreal.. but it still is nice in some way or the other..
and the one thing that comes to the fore, screeming for recognition, is one undenied phenomenon::
she is always noticed in a new place, by someone, who is the centre of all others' notifications.
and it holds true. yet again.
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