heavy heart flying high, happy tears in the eye.

i have grown up listening them say--"change is the only constant."

fortunately you never changed.. you have been the only sole "constant" force for me since the time we first met.. and looking back, it seems so surreal.. 9 years whizzzed by, and i just never realised.. coz, it seems like yesterday, when i see us like this.. sitting and giggling.. chatting and discussing.. girls and bitches.. i have never been so free with anyone before i met you.. and till date, you happen to be the ONE, with whom i can share everything..anything..beyond boundaries..since the very day we met, birthdays were never without you..ever..you coming was obviously mandatory..for both of us..us sitting in our favourite joints..happy and gay..

and yes, there have been changes..the places changed..but we never did.

first time i was sad, when you left school after 10th grade.. i felt 'robbed'..felt 'hollow'.. but i consoled myself, that we are in the same city.. and that always put a smile on my face..

my heart grieved when i left the city after 12th for college and hostel..the look on your face said it all what you couldn't say..i almost sobbed myself to bed everynight, but cheered up at the thought that i would be coming back home every vacation that i get..and i'll see you..and that was the only thing that held my tears back in my eyes..

my heart leaped with joy when i was back in the city--bags, baggages, et al.. coz we would be together again..

but my heart broke when you left the country.. and tears couldn't stay put and so they flowed.. and thus the first tear found its way down.. and thus began my long waits for your return..the anxious anticipation..somehow i managed to plug the flow with the thought that you'd come once a year for your exams.. that was the only consolation i was left with..and just for your return, i would wish fervently for your exam dates to be preponed, every time!

and now that i know that you are gonna start anew, my joy knows no bounds.. coz, for me, i still see you the way i saw you when we used to sit together and eat together..9 years back.. i'm overwhelmed and overjoyed for you.. but somewhere, my heart still grieves.. coz this time, you'll be gone forever.. gone without my 'assurances' that you'll come back.. and so, the tears find their way down, one more time.. but with a smile on my lips..

coz, wherever you may be, you'll still be Hans.. and i'll be Auroo.. and it will still be the same.. constant..♥

birthdays wont be the same ever.. but on the upside, i'll have you for all the advices now onwards..

and just that you know----"You Still Are The Sole Constant In My Life!"