it was the time when she thought and believed that she was happily settled with herself.. her life, her 'personal' life, that is, to be precise..
she had almost everything going for her.. the way she would have liked.. the way she thought it was possible only in the Utopian world.. where no one was required to know anything more than what was required, which, as a matter of fact, they knew invariably.. so, no unnecessarily obtrusive questions by surrounding 'well-wishers'.. peace, of some sorts.. where no one was much bothered about the declaration of anything..
where, everyone had accepted her being as it was.. and that was the norm of her being.. at least that appeared to be as the one..
she, too believed along the same lines for herself.. there was no excessive baggage of 'compromises'.. there were no constraints, either.. there was no uncertainty too, coz, she lived with the present.. "they" lived and believed in the present.. and in that "present" land, everything was just upto the way they had always wanted.. and yes, they were happy..
but for that day, when the sudden bleak thought of a certain possibility of a 'long distance' clouded her self, and she found herself to be thoroughly terrified and shaken.. when she felt the wet troughs along her face, and couldn't help but sob herself to bed..
and she realised, that it was just all too far along serious.. way far along serious..
and she felt weak..
*sob*
she had almost everything going for her.. the way she would have liked.. the way she thought it was possible only in the Utopian world.. where no one was required to know anything more than what was required, which, as a matter of fact, they knew invariably.. so, no unnecessarily obtrusive questions by surrounding 'well-wishers'.. peace, of some sorts.. where no one was much bothered about the declaration of anything..
where, everyone had accepted her being as it was.. and that was the norm of her being.. at least that appeared to be as the one..
she, too believed along the same lines for herself.. there was no excessive baggage of 'compromises'.. there were no constraints, either.. there was no uncertainty too, coz, she lived with the present.. "they" lived and believed in the present.. and in that "present" land, everything was just upto the way they had always wanted.. and yes, they were happy..
but for that day, when the sudden bleak thought of a certain possibility of a 'long distance' clouded her self, and she found herself to be thoroughly terrified and shaken.. when she felt the wet troughs along her face, and couldn't help but sob herself to bed..
and she realised, that it was just all too far along serious.. way far along serious..
and she felt weak..
*sob*
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