"hum ek baar jeete hai, ek baar marte hai....aur pyar---pyar bhi ek hi baar hota hai..!"

no.. i am not watching this movie.. no.. i am not a shah rukh khan fan.. no.. i have not watched this movie in the last 10 years.. yet, as i am sitting on my chair, this very dialogue hits me from the blue.. inexplicably.. and even if i look closely into the above statement, the only part of concurrence is "---pyar bhi ek hi baar hota hai..!"

coz, for me, i hav already loved.. and i hav had "my" share of love.. there may be many people out there "loving" me for all i am worth.. but, none of them, now, really makes it as "my" share.. it holds true.. it happens just the once.. and for all the other times, its probably just for "love's sake"..

and its just not a good thing and a good way to realise.. makes you feel all the more disgusted with yourself.. it feels like you are tricking those unassuming people out there into loving you.. and its not right..

an evil bitch..yours truly.