she could never explain the way she felt.. the cruel feeling making its way up from within her. everytime she faced Her, she had that jab of disgust and jealousy.. she detested Her.. for Her gaining proximity to him.. for them talking.. for him calling "Her" and not her.. she tried making her feeling explicit.. but it never cut across the way she wanted it to be.. and the worst part, he will probably never ever be aware of all this.. coz, he was never there, when this all happened..

and yes. she missed him..every passing second..it getting worse..all the more..ever..n ever..