seven days..thats all it takes..
or so, has been proven..time n again..
but there was someone who defied this..
n he went on to say--
"love..doesnt happen so quick girl,takes time,maybe it doesnt,but for me at least it does."
some sure heavy words.
i never knew, if he really meant them,
wen he said them,
but these words sure made something happen..
went on to convince me that,
these weren't to be forgotten..
it may have been proven, time n again,
by love expoents, who'd swear by them,
in any given point in space..
it just chose to follow, an altogether different lane,
with me, at its other end..
standing me apart,
in this world so insane.....

-A.
15.2.10.

"care" to "free" :) or "free" to "care" ??? :D

It was like wat it was supposed to be..Carefree..“care” n “free”..with equal emphasis on both..contradictory, you say? I cant agree more..I was “free”..free to “care”..n that’s all that made the difference..n I dint have to wander to the woods to tread on the path least traversed by..but still, it made the difference..A general shift in preferences..from faces to numbers..a strong dislike towards a face..n an equally, if not more, strong “favoritism” for numbers..but I was free..free to care..n so, it dint matter..carefree..But faces came back..n I was still content..free, after all..n that was all that mattered..Free..it was..the face was “free”..of any conventional attachments..I was “free” to “face” it, in any way..I was free to care..I was free to face..But I chose to bind myself to numbers..had an instant favorite..7.2.. it chose a pair..n so became 7.1..the numbers dint stop there..30 more digits followed..n the numbers were not meant to be free..so, buried them..n free again..moved to the “wonderland”..to be greeted by entities..a gentle graduation from numbers n faces..dog, a man’s best friend..i’d say, “understated”..n no longer the “holy” cow..it was a wonderland, afterall..n things differ..amidst all these,a face surfaced..n I was again free..to face it my way..but, the buried numbers were dug up..and they broke..the bonds broken, but not rejoiced..tears were shed..the heart wept..the face became stronger..bolder..another face emerged..floated..but was more than a face..found a farmer..was comforting..”field” would be “cared” again..i went back to faces..n gave one a definite form..my face..the “farmer” tended n cared..and the “field” prospered..my face glowed..the work done, n farmer gone..fields overturned..n the face, journeyed on..in search..dog followed..farmer cared..the face smiled.. :)

mumbo-jumbo!

people do take their time for realisation to dawn upon them..or rather, i can put it this way..people take their time to "allow" certain realisations to dawn upon them.. and for all these living moments of my life, including this moment as i'm putting this thing down,i've always hoped for one thing the most..i say, "the most", coz there are a fair lot of other stuffs that i hope for too..but, nevertheless, the thing for which i hope for the most is that, it should never be too late to "realise"..n this so-called "realisation" is pertinent to the said situation, whichever is applicable.. im not very sure that i can go upstage n boldly declare that i've always tasted success on this front..but then again, may be, i continue being able to live with this supposed "failure", because there happens to be one more thing, which i very strongly believe in having "the" major hold in all my life's happenings.. n that being--"whatever happens, happens or the good of it"..so, whenever, i "allow" the "realisation" to dawn upon me that i might have taken a bit longer than the "allowed" time, i go back to the belief that i hold on to..

 

at times, i think, is it because, its convenient? an easy way out, to escape from my confrontations to self?or, i try to be the "great" one..or is it, because, thats the only thing, that helps me to get back on my feet, n readies me for another venture, whenever it gets tough?it has to be either of the two.. but then, wat about it, when it is applicable to someone else? can i allow that "someone else", however significant a position he happens to occupy at that given time n moment, to hold on to the very same above mentioned beliefs?if yes, then why? n why m i not able to find answers? its not that im anserable to anyone..here, im not even being able to be answerable to my own self..

 

well, yes..there has been a certain "realisation"..way beyond, probably, the "stipulated time"..which happened to involve two "beings" at the same time..it was more like, both  "allowing" the "realisation" to dawn upon them respectively, at precisely the same moment..and then, both being faced by the same dead end as for the answers concerned.. but now, as im putting this down, i wonder, where will this "realisation" lead "us"..

 

my belief says, it happened because it had to happen..and it happened when it had to happen..n its never late for anything to happen..its only "late", as per our "convinience"..but whatever it is, the bottomline holds, that it happened, whenever it happened..and i realise, im no one to judge the reasons for its happenings..and as per my "beliefs",i should know that it happened for some "good"..but here, there is one small alteration..i cant help but to speculate about what precise "good" may be the reason for the "happening", which is the "realisation" in this case..because, it incorporates "two" people..which is not very "convenient" for me..

 

because the other "being" involved in this, still holds that significant position..