thank you!

WHEW!!!!
n thats exactly enough to describe the way im feeling..now..one word to explain it all :) been really sorta rough last few days, n if you go further back, might have even been a couple of weeks.. but yeah, FREE today:) inspite of the fact that the next couple of weeks are gonna be equally (if not more) hectic, plus, i have a viva tomo( on which i'll be marked!), for which i have no clue at all, till this very instant (that im typing this :P)

anyway, i say "thank you" for a lot of reasons.. firstly, a direct confrontation with myself, and then acting onto it.. :)
and then, well, this is gonna sound a lil bit wierdly absurd.. :P
this goes to the person, whom i've left no possible stones( bricks or even gravels) unturned, to curse in each and every possible way..but, as it stands now, i really say "thank you".. in fact, i never even considered or rather never liked to even consider that person as a 'person' even, per se.. and i had even crowned him as a 'rodent' (with sincere and due apologies to the original class of rodents in the animal kingdom! ;):P no offense!!!). but, inspite of all this, i say "thank you" to you today! (n its NO WAY that you're gonna be reading it..so, it still leaves me with a fair amount of scope and freedom to indulge myself in a few cuss words ;) lol!!)

your method of insisting on making a draft and then building it on gradually to the final manuscript for a report, and all the efforts, kinda helped me..then.. n now.. i din realise it then(well, your continous presence and breathing down on my neck (literally!) dint go a long way in making it easier and condusive), but, i do realise it now..albeit a bit reluctantly at first.. :P so yeah! this is for you :)

thank you, RAT! :)

i may have it all, n i may even have you all
n yet i feel, i have none-
neither all of it, nor even a part;
of you ,or the stuffs galore..
but im surrounded with everything, with splendour aplomb,
n yet nothing, with bare spaces waiting to be filled..

but my eyes are filled
to the brim n more
than even what they can hold..

-A
30.9.10.

i may have it all, n i may even have you all
n yet i feel, i have none-
neither all of it, nor even a part;
of you ,or the stuffs galore..
but im surrounded with everything, with splendour aplomb,
n yet nothing, with bare spaces waiting to be filled..

but my eyes are filled
to the brim n more
than even what they can hold..

-A
30.9.10.

can i miss you the way i did
when you were not there..but were still, with me..?
amidst the thoughts, like the deep blue sea
that lives on, even when.. they are not to be.

-A
28.9.10.

now n then wen i see your face
you take me away to that special place
and if i'd stare too long
i'd probably break down and cry....

:'(



You may say that I'm not Right
but I'm not Wrong-
I just dont Feel.
Ypu may say that I dont Feel
but its not that-
I just dont Share.
You may say that I dont Share
but I still deny.
You may say that You dont See
and then I say-

"maybe, You're not the Right,
and so, You dont Feel, that I Share,
and so.. You dont See."


-A
26.9.10.

YOU n I

the day, wen even "YOU" will be "I",
that'll be the day, "YOU" will know it why..
n it wont come (or may even come), by "YOUR" saying that-
"so, henceforth, you can say "ME" as "YOU"...."
coz, say as i still-
it still depends very much on "YOU";
for "YOU" to be "I", too...!

:'(

-A.
23.9.10.

first fight..n "gnite" :)

it all started tonight-
with a wierd discussion, or,
had might even been a 'fight'?! :-o
and the reason, well,
it might have been unknowingly hidden,
for all prying,
for it, that we might! ;) :-P
but sense prevailed and peace restored-
with all smiles and "no-barred-holds" :-D
so, here am i,
running outta "rhymes" :-P
wishing you-
a very "good night!"
but my style-
"gnite.. sweetdreams.. your dreams.." :-* mvah! :-D

-A
10.3.10.

well yeah!
this was the very starting point..well, not really the "starting point" of the conversations, which was already boasting of a (then) month n a half's worth value :P (*chuckle*), but yes, a definite starting point of formation of unsaid n unspoken bond.. n a fight was the inception! voila!
and the fulcrum- "goodnight"! :D:P

n the parties concerned are so accustomed to it, that it has become a 'by-default' part of their everyday's existance :)
n it holds true..till this day.. n the instant :)
<3 it!