"OK Happy Budday"

yes. i was excited.. when the day started.. very.. excited.. exalted..n yes, excited.. because, it was special to me.. n it held a special significance for me..
a year..the day.. today.. :) n there were a hell lotta stuffs that were coming up.. but amidst all this brouhaha, surprisingly though, i was calm.. there was a sence of pristine stilness.. something like, nothing can really bother me now..like, im at peace with myself, and with all those things surrounding me, inclusive of both the tangibles n the intangibles..

but yet, i did happen to harbour certain wishes.. n ended up writing pomes instead..n i know very well, that they'll never find their way to the intended destination.. or even if they do, i'll never have a way to know that.. n i dunno, whether this is something to be glad about or to be a lil sad about..

but, like, there are two sides to everything, this also has its flip side.. the ending per se.. cant really say, that it was how i supposed it will be.. a pseudo fight (again!).. n i hope it stays at that--"pseudo"--!

but the real ending with a "happy budday!" :-P well, then that was a surprise, definitely! :-D dunno, if id have liked something else n different in its place :-P

but, you know what! till you come up with the 'something else', its gonna be this way.. :) coz, its trully a "happy budday to us" :-D

for You n I

It was a year of uknown faces
And of random conversations
Of irate behaviour and wierd consolations
Of fighting for attention and diverse discussions
Of fond longingness and abrupt 'missing you' moments
Of moon gazings and weather watching
Of cold fights and making up periods
Of random blues and the spurt of colours
Of the thousand 'milna hai's and the priceless 'milna hai' moment :)
Of the nothing that was, to the everything that it became
Of the birth of 2 entities--
Item and P.A. :)

And of an everlasting effervescent term with an entire new meaning--"shut up" :)

‎365 n turning to 1!! :) ♥ :)

and so it ends..
and when i look back, i see that,
it had the smiles, the joys and all the joie-de-vivres,
and it brought with it the tears and cries, and at times, even the very rare fights,
of meetings and the rendezvous, and all those would-have-been "i love you"s,
of being the rare solitary reaper and also the oft 'loved' cynosure,
it had the endlessly long conversations--good enough replacement for any radio-stations,
and the mandatory signing-off verse, without which, the nights were the worst,
but then, it was all just mine and thine,
and of/for no one else, at any point in time,
and for all those sweet moments of simple sweet nothings,
i'll make my calender meet again, for a new begining! :)

♥

6 degrees.. (?)

we have always come across this 'comforting n consoling' (n at times, 'not so comforting n consoling') terms whenever we come across someone ridiculously similar in appearance with ourselves or with someone else (in this case,its more profoundly enhanced if the 'someone else' happens to be a person of extremely "common" roots n belongings with nothing to signify his/her's 'starry' appeal or association of that order).. n its the ever legendary phase--"6 degress or seperation".. or there's even one that i remember being told--"there exists 7 look-alikes in different parts of the world at a time".. but the one that takes the cake is this--"your doppleganger is just a sneeze's distance from you"..umm, im sorry, i cant provide with its authenticity..

but still, its ridiculous anyway to see a mirror image of yourself in front of you..n it gets more ridiculous if that mirror image is more in terms (or even entirely in terms) of the behavioural aspects (including the habits, the thoughts n even the ideas).. n i remember, i had a tough time dealing with it when i was struck by it the first time.. not because, the person (in this case, a He) was a mirror image in terms of looks (phew! thankfully!)but, he was so strikingly similar in everything else..this "everyting else" includes (or rather, then included) the respective "situations" in which both of us were stranded in your "personal lives", our conversation over songs which were again surprising, n the manner in which both of us used to react to given situations! what what made it all the more difficult was the fact that he was my first "crush"n i was always "passive" (thanks to my fear of consequences)..

but then, how will you react if you come across this kinda situation that involves a certain someone's spoken lines n some lines in a novel, both of which were spoken (respectively) for the same "situation" n in the same "context" of the respective happenings?

"I want you however you want to be wanted".. this is the line from the novel..
"i want what you want".. this is the line i was subject to.. exclusively..

 the context in which the respective lines were addressed to their respective addressees happens to be the same.. n this is exactly the reason that bummed me out! (i beg your pardon for the use of the language.. im seriously overwhelmed)
in this case, the person concerned n I, have almost everything in common..n everything is screeching of "same-pinch" n "copy-cat" to the extent that it has now become a way of life..we're accustomed.. n we're at peace with it..each being in sync with each other n with this "commonality" respectively (per se)..

but, for me, the same "mirror image" of the words n its underlying contextual situation, is gonna take sometime to come to terms with..

"i want you however you want to be wanted"

♥ dreams..realisations..memories..realisations..everything ♥

When I think back
On these times
And the dreams
We left behind
I'll be glad 'cause
I was blessed to get
To have you in my life
When I look back
On these days
I'll look and see your face
You were right there for me

In my dreams
I'll always see you soar
Above the sky
In my heart
There always be a place
For you for all my life
I'll keep a part
Of you with me
And everywhere I am
There you'll be

Well you showed me
How it feels
To feel the sky
Within my reach
And I always
Will remember all
The strength you
Gave to me
Your love made me
Make it through
Oh, I owe so much to you
You were right there for me

'Cause I always saw in you
My light, my strength
And I want to thank you
Now for all the ways
You were right there for me
You were right there for me
For always
♥♥♥

1111 :)

n so it finally arrives.. n how! with (not one, but) all FOUR numero unos, jostling for space! ;)
n it almost made me think real hard, regarding, how n what a new year's blog post should be! coz, i was certain about one thing, there HAS to be a new year's blogpost, come whatever may.. n all said and done! yo!

n call it superstition or utter foolishness n stupidity personified, i do believe in one thing.. (apart from miracles, that is).. you do end up doing for at least, the most part of the year, what you do on the first day of the year. :-D

n that precisely is the very cause n reason for my 32 all out! :-D

it was trully a "happy new year" rendezvouz :)
included recollection of dates,setting of reminders, a 'new year promise,my 'new year' ride of i10 and going back to those sweetest memories of 'once upon a time in sometime' :)
n it gave me (n us) one more reason to always be in favour of blind dates :P

n then the evening n the nyt to follow was no less.. n just to know that i have my own personalised n customised 'superman' who is currently in khau-khau mode, is always the greatest thrill! :-D the bestest begining.. n for a change, my 'plans' dint ditch me! *love*

p.s.: n just in continuation with my belief for the 'first day deed', my year forward, looks real promising.. :) even the 'daily horoscope' was in tune with this belief :)